My fiance and I lost our baby on Super Bowl Sunday. I went to the ER Saturday night because I had been bleeding, not to heavy, and it was brownish red in color. I figure ok it's been 3 days and it hasn't gotten any better, yet it hasn't gotten any worse, so let's just go get checked out. Well I sat in the ER waiting room for almost 3 hours.. i guess pregnant bleeding women aren't that important. After I got back there, they did a pelvic exam and told me my cervix was closed and thats where the bleeding was coming from because I had gotten a LEEP done in April and apparently the extra blood flow was making it bleed. The could only get slight heart tones because the baby was moving around so much, the never did and ultrasound. I was 10w5d. We went home and I went to bed. I awoke at 8am in excruciating pain and went to the bathroom and began to pass clots. I knew right then and there that we had lost the baby. This was our second baby we lost in 13 months. I crawled back into bed and woke my fiance up and told him, we both laid there and cried together. I was in the bathroom every 10 minutes for the rest of the morning. My fiance went to get his daughter from her mom's house and was nervous about leaving me home alone, I told him to go, my 3yr old was there and if anything happened he knows how to talk on the phone. Well sure enough, about 45 minutes before my fiance was due back I was checking my email and passed out in front of the computer. I came to, signed off, crawled to the bathroom, and passed the baby. I crawled back out and my son had the phone in his hand asking Mommy you ok? I said no you have to call someone for me. He turned the phone on and hit 911 as i told him to and then he told the dispatcher that Mommy is sleeping on the floor, she has a baby in her belly and she is bleeding a whole bunch, everywhere. They sent an ambulance to get me, and since we know the dispatchers as my fiance is Asst. Fire Chief, they called my neighbor to come stay with my son. I get to the hospital and they wouldn't let my fiance come back there to be with me for over 3 hours. I was livid. I wanted him there with me. They did the pelvic, and then an ultrasound. Told me that I passed the baby and was about to send me home. I told them that there was no way I was going home without a D&C because I have a hemmorage problem and if i went home I would just be right back in there. So they agreed to call my OB and see if he would come down there and do the procedure. Well the doc that was on call for him came down and we talked. She was so sweet and sincere. Instead of just doing to the D&C and leaving it at that, she made sure that this time testing was going to be done on the placenta and whatever else the could get to see why I keep miscarrying. As I get ready to go upstairs, no one would go get my fiance from the waiting room and tell him i was headed for the operating room. We get off the elevator and the first thing I see is the Nursery and a nurse bringing in an newborn. OMG I lost it. Then I found out that I was on the Labor and Delivery floor instead of the regular operating floor. I was so mad, hurt and upset. I was put into a room next door to a woman in labor and heard her baby cry as it was born. I lost it even more. Then of all things, instead of knocking me out, they wheel me into the operating room WIDE AWAKE! I have never in my life been wheeled into an operating room awake. I totally panicked and lost my mind, covered my face with the blankets and was crying uncontrollably. All I can still see to this day when i close my eyes is the bright lights and the cold metal of the machines. They had to take me out of there, calm me down then knock me out and bring me back in to do the D&C. I woke up a little after 8PM, just in time to see the Steelers win the Super Bowl. My fiance was sitting next to my bed holding my hand when I woke up. He had only been there for 15 minutes because no one went to get him. They brought me some food at 830 and I left the hospital at 930 to go home. I will NEVER go back to that hospital AGAIN in my life, even if I am lying there dying, I will not go. I am sorry this is so long, this is the first time I have written this out completely and told anyone the whole story besides my mom, my fiance and my stepdaughter. Thank you for reading this far. Feel free to email me. Mom In The Mound 651 AOL
~Kelly
